juz a short share

menjadi satu persoalan..

will i be steadfast on this path till the end of time..

a sis shared with me what she thought about what she read in what she called as 'IM based blog'..

'medan amal pertama kamu ialah diri kamu..'

well, at first i thought she was talking about one of the hadith about the 'niat'..

so, i gave her the 'quote' in r-raqai'..

 (kelesuan selepas mujahadah adalah kerana kesilapan langkah pertama..) 

and then she gave me a term used in a talk by nouman..

'desensitize'... 

which she said, 

"klu mujahadah itu maksud berusaha, then

lesu adalah silap. desensitize is when we dont even realize we lesu."

well, i guess.. in a way, she's rite..

kadangkala tak sedar pun sebenarnya dah lesu or more exact futur..

and by the time we realise it, it will be too late..

bukan lambat untuk memperbaiki diri.. 

since, there will always room for a change -for better..

but, the 'desensitize' here will be dangerous if by the time we realise about it..

we fell the refusal to change back to a better state..

perhaps because of ashamed to others..

or perhaps because we felt much more comfortable in the state we have been living in the condition we referred to as 'lesu'...

no doubt, its difficult for us to stand alone.. without a 'biah' state around us..

and here i guess, plays the part as what we call as 'friends'..

as sometimes, we may have did something not good, and all of a sudden a friend greet us..

(in msgs,ym,email,fb..etc),
 our head will knock us into realization at that moment..

we'l realize that what we're currently doin, not rite..

the friend could have juz greet to say 'hi', and did not even gave any 'reminder'/tazk on anything..

but the presence of the person, somehow will remind us what actually we're doing..

[that definitely acknowledge the saying, "kawan itu ibarat cermin kita"]..

so, i guess, 'desensitize' is something that will happen to people around us..including ourself..

but it can always be treated.. if one have the will..

and can be helped by friends around it..

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-pen off-