today was my day to meet up with my doc after more than 5 months..

and today it was with yet another doc.. who i guess is the head of the 'N' dept. that deal with M's.

and again, when the doc. look upon my previous mri, the doc. was quite surprise how my condition comparing with the mris.

for the same as before, when a group of 'n' docs in melb. where they question and wonder, how do i still manage to stand and walk, when the mris of my brain and spinal cord prove it otherwise..

all i could say, A Great thanks to The All Mighty Lord, for yet, giving me the chance to still move and walk around when my immune system attacks was suppose to prevent me to do so..

when i think about this, it somehow taught me about something in live...

i could have given up hope when i was first diagnose with it.. where i could have drop out from finishing my study abroad...

i could have been depressed, questioning why does it choose to attack my immune sys., while there are still many msin nations out there who studies at the same place as i did.. where my sis. was the 1st to study abroud.. yet He gave me the feeling to take it as a challenge.. where back in school, my challenge was to compete my sis. in studies.. and now the challenge  were to fight my own inner feeling..

He gave me the will and desire to jog and run.. which i love back then in school.. it started when i was still in my primary school, where i did run side by side with my dad (a school event), and continue my passion to jog in sec. school.. which lead me the desire to cycle in my uni years.. and i guess, it help me a lot to never give up hope from walking, although sometimes, there are pains in doing so..

now, although most of the friends which i got to know in my uni years are getting further apart from me, He still get me in touch with my school friends.. from different states in this country, and it gave me hope, He will never leave His servants alone, although everyone else (most) are doing so..

oh, yes.. my hobby when i was in primary school was drawing whatever disney baby cartoons and sold it in school with the price of 5 cents per piece, and i leave my passion for a 6 years... and a couple of years ago.., the hobby of copying down figure has return..

but now, i just drew it for fun.. for i don't think i could sell it around..

ok, i'm mumbling nonsense here...

well, my passion in things could come and ago.. i could have love to write at one moment, and turn it more into reading... or into listening.. and now, my passion is not so into writing for now..

till then..

-penOff-