Today.. i dont know whats wrong with me.. could have been stress that pilling up due to the assignments and this coming oral.. yet.. its not suppose to mark a downfall on my faith in Him..
And tonight.. when i flipped through the sites.. something caught my attention, put a streak in my heart..
is what my feelings currently due to my actions that i've passed by without noticing it..have i done any sins that im unaware of.. has my submission to Him lessen each day.. and these questions goes on.. until im not even sure there's an end to it..
As this song ** buzz my eardrums.. i realised.. its all because of not putting a whole devotion to what im suppose to have done as an abdillah in this world..
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detik waktu terus berjalan
berhias gelap dan terang
suka dan duka, tangis dan tawa,
tergores bagai lukisan
seribu mimpi berjuta sepi,
hadir bagai teman sejati
di antara lelahnya jiwa,
dalam resah dan air mata..
kupersembahkan, kepadaMu ,
yang terindah dalam hidupku
meskiku rapuh dalam langkah
kadang x setia kepadamu
namun cinta dalam jiwa, hanyalah padaMu..
maafkanlah, bila hati tak sempurna mencintaiMu
dalam dada, ku harap hanya diriMu yang bertakhta
detik waktu terus berlalu semua berakhir padaMu..
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its true the responsibilities handed upon me by this world is something i should fulfill thoroughly.. yet.. it should not actually mark down my even burden responsibilities i have, as His mere servant..
and indeed when my heart worn down.. i tend to seek for someone.. some other soul.. to put a comfort in me.. but none came.. and i realised.. the one i should have first and foremost turn to is Him.. no one else..
I have not prioritize My Lord as my only love.. between 2 love.. this world.. or the world hereafter to meet Him in the paradise for His righteous servant..
O Allah.. Ya Rahman.. Ya Rahim..
Do forgive your weak, feeble servant..who tends to forget things that has already been known.. for not putting my life just for you.. for not be there, when i should have to..
and indeed when my heart worn down.. i tend to seek for someone.. some other soul.. to put a comfort in me.. but none came.. and i realised.. the one i should have first and foremost turn to is Him.. no one else..
I have not prioritize My Lord as my only love.. between 2 love.. this world.. or the world hereafter to meet Him in the paradise for His righteous servant..
O Allah.. Ya Rahman.. Ya Rahim..
Do forgive your weak, feeble servant..who tends to forget things that has already been known.. for not putting my life just for you.. for not be there, when i should have to..
