39:53

 "O My servants who have transgressed against their souls! Despair not of the mercy of Allah"

 "Indeed, Allah forgives all sins. Indeed, it is He who is the Forgiving, the Merciful"

by the dawn..

and by the nights..

and by the even and odds..

and by the night when it departs..

In truth, this heart longs for You, it misses You

Yet it wonder..

Why is love still not present and why do doubt arise

Why is the afection yet to bloom

In truth,

even if it pick up all the gems at the bottom of the ocean

Or even if it water with rainwater from Your seven skies

True love will still not be present

Nor the longing to make it bloom

It had tried to give a gift to You

But maybe because its content is not perfect, there is no glow

It tried to water so that it grows and blooms

But maybe because its water

Is not as fresh as the true nature 

So even if it picks up all the gems at the bottom of the ocean or water with all the rainwater from Your seven skies

The love will still not be present

And the longing will not able to make it bloom

To You, Lord, give Your love to me

Lord, grant my longing for You may I know if my gratitude is Yours

(Translated from a fav local group song back in high school)

Longingess..

 

The further I get from You

The closer You come to me

Oh, Most Gracious,

Who am I in Your sight?

The more I try to get closer,

The stronger Your test question me..

Oh, Most Perfect,

I am merely a smack of dust in front of You

How will I be when I face You?

Will You accept this humble servant of Yours?

O the Most Forgiving

In the shadow of the sun I am forgetful

The lies of the world are full of pretense

At dawn I surrender

Longing for the clear dew of Your Love

If my deeds were even counted, I would not yet be able to approach the gates of Your heaven

Oh, Most Gracious

Protect me from Your punishment

Your love; Ar Rahman, is what I desire

With Your Mercy, do forgive me

How will I be when I face You

Will You accept this humble servant of Yours?

Ya Ghafurr, You are the Most Forgiving

In the shadow of the sun, I am blinded by the lies of the world that are full of pretense

In the early morning I surrender

Longing for the clear dew of Your love, Ar Raheem

If my deeds were yearn , I would still not yet be able to approach the gates of Your heaven

Oh, the Most Gracious God

Protect me from Your punishment

One seek You Only throughout this grief in helplessnes..

(This is just a translated song which certainly portray my current feelings..)

Today when i open His letter, i came across this verse which i think is certainly meant for me..

"Verily, Allah knows those who believe, and verily, He knows the hypocrites " {Al-Ankabut, verse 11)

There are those among us, who say things which contradict on they're actual believe & trust..

Although people around might not know this, but do know, Allah has already known.

Ever wonder why we are at time been given generous gifts by Him and at other times, we're being severely tested with hardships and there are also among us who'll always been given good tidings while the other continuous hardships..?

Both good tidings and hardships are actually tests..

Tests to distinguish among us who are the true believers and who are the hypocrites..

Although Allah knows best who are the true believers and the hypocrites without even placing the tests to us.. yet He place it to give us perhaps as proves that will be displayed to us on the day of jusdgement when we questioned on the reason of the punishments we receive..

Walllahualam.. only He knows best

A reminder for me and those who read..

-pen off-

Have you ever read on the saying, "All good things must come to an end..?"

Well, you might just thought 'obviously duh!!"

But for one here, one have mislook /overlook on this..

Early this year, one was being gifted with a 'trial medicatios..'
at no cost..

And with this non-injecting medicines, alhamdulillah, there were no new symptoms arise..
He even ensure that the medicines somehow assisted the body to do physical activities without failure...

It has been roughly 5 months with this new 'drug'..

& when it seems all goes well,

failures will then sweep by and flow it all in a row..

The myelin are now attacking other areas which was before guarded from harm befalls..

It has decided for one to continously be in incontinence position..

One needs to ponder on the reason for it..

Was one ignorant towards His blessings...

Or was the given gifts wrongly used...?

For one to keep on constant alert on this..

"And present to them the example of the life in this world, like the rain which We send down from the sky, and the vegetation of the earth sprouts (growing thick) with it..and then it becomes dry remnants, scattered by the winds. And Allah is ever, over all things, Perfect in Ability" (chapter 18: versr 45)


Till then....

Recently, when i came across this song, it always touched my heart as it constantly reminding me of how great Allah gifted us, me each day..

Though the song is in malay language, it still manage to capture my heart..

Since the rainy season has come, it was reminded of the sky standing tall,  though the fall of the downpour are heavy with strikes of lightnin,  the sky still stand up high above without even a crack to begin with.. and have we not be grateful to Him on this..

Allah Taála has even stated it in Chapter 67, verse 3 & 4 where He has continuously asked us, did we found any weakness in His creation of the sky.. which somehow meant as this..

"..He, the Exalted in Might, The Forgiving, who created seven heavens in layers, we (people) do not see in the creation of the Most Merciful any inconsistency.. Though we may kept on or repeat to  gaze at the sky,  we'll never find any breaks in it....so, why do kept on ignoring His signs.."


O Lord, thank you for the protection you gave us, from being hit by the lightning and for keeping the sky still standing high..Alhamdulillah..

" Ya Tuhanku, segala puji bagiMu, bagaimana kemuliaan wajahMu dan keAnggungan kuasaMu.."
"O my Lord! All Grace is due to You, which is befitting to Your glorious presence and Your great sovereignty"

Every day we'll under go all kind of 'tasks'..

Be it a normal daily action such as walking around to the house, or writing a report at the work place or simply just by taking a bath..

why are these referred to ask 'tasks'..?

Well, to put it in a way, not all people could do the walking,, writing, or bathing as easy as it may seem.. one might accidently slip on a piece of tissue on the floor,
or one might have strained his/her hands while doing last night house chores which had caused difficulties in writing..
so, yeah.. these are 'tasks'..

However, in our daily routine, sometimes, there will come upon us a bigger tasks that nedded us to fulfill..

for example, the boss might suddenly call you up and told that there will be a meeting with client this afternoon and nedded you to do a short presentation..

So, when this incident occur, you might be overwhelmed with nervousness and worriness..

As what was experienced by Moses a.s., when he had killed a man previously and then was summoned to speak & face pharaoh..

and how did Moses a.s faced it..?

Moses a.s. simply prayed and supplicate to God..

Moses did not asked for instance success, but he asked for God to ease it for him..

in chapterv20;to-ha, verse 25-28:

   'my Lord, expand for me my breast,
    And ease for me my task,
    And untie the knot from my tongue,
    That they may understand my spech..'

Looking at how Moses a.s. react, he did not request for instance success,
but he requested for the task to be ease for him to fullfill


In other words.. The All Mighty God does not count whether do we succeed in our everyday task, but He actually look more upon the effort that was placed to do it & finish it..

So, for instance, person (A) might be one who can easily scored in his/her studies without putting much effort in studying it while another person (B) might have placed tremendous effort in studying it, but still yet to scored as (A) did, do know, with His Genersity, He'll reward (B) much more greater than (A)..

that how the beauty if His Fairness and Acknowledgement compared to the humans..

Anyway, from that verses (chapter 20:verse25-28),
it shows that simply supplicating is not enough..
there must be an effort, work on it...

Wallahualam.. only He knows best..

-till then-