In the name of Allah, The All Mighty, All Merciful..

Started this awaited year 2020 by accepting His Call to perform 'umrah

Its not a planned journey; yet due to His call, given the will to go on with it in all ease in getting the able travel visa to in performing the 'Umrah itself. Alhamdulillah.

Now with the crisis of covid-19 and the arabs authority constricting many nations into entering the holy land, now i know why His call was earlier, before the outbreak of this covid disease..

this certainly clear His say in  Chapter 2 of the holy Quran, Al-Baqarah
verse 216.. 

'But perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you; and perhaps you love a ... And Allah Knows, while you know not'

True enough, if i were to go as planned by close relatives, i will certainly be left stranded due to all flight to arab are cancelled.

Thank you Allah for inviting me earlier..

in the name of the All Mighty God..

y'day had an interview with one of the researcher in regards of ms.. more on my story line on how did i first got it together with the perception on how did i cope it and future expectations on it..

its a  norm for me to discuss is as it the same thing on what i have to say during each of my checkup as i have to explain it all to the docs.. since it'll always differ in each checkup.

however, what i have yet to shared is how did i manage to keep my self from feeling down or depressed ..

though was asked, i could not come up with an instant response.. thus lead me to say it does not affect how i felt after i was told i had ms..

honestly, looking back, which is now more than a decade pass, i realise the people/cummunity i had with me around, does not gave me the 'time' to felt depressed.. and since my love of cycling and my capability to move around without much difficulty somehow helped with to find ease wile i jog and cycle around in His beauty of the seas and nature..

And, from people i lived in, i was constantly reminded that everything He put us to go thru in life, is situations we can face it, overcome it.. So i guess, that had gave me strength as i know, i should not surrender to any kind of difficulties i'm in, be it emotional, financial, health.. as He knows, He place everyone in different situations as each of us, has different withstand on things..

"Allah does not burden a soul beyond that it can bear…”
 (Chapter 2: verse286

Yes, there are times when i will feel stress or sad, but continuous of that feeling actually a sign i have certainly chosen to give up.. though i may have at certain instants felt that way, however, moving forward will always be my stand.. as i may have at times, have difficulty in walking after a long period, i still keep in mind, i have to move on.. or else, i will be left behind.. be late but safe..

well.. just a believe i have to always keep in mind..

-till then

Recently our nation had undergo what i'll say a major election which caught a great attention from countries around the globe..

Although i'll admit i'm personally glad for the mark of the country history for a total change in the gov.. yet im totally against of taking it as a platform to expose all the flaws/blemish/'aib' of the opposing parties individual..

Its true they have made wrong moves in managing the country.. but to expose further  flaws which sometimes are not related to the country management might just be too much..

 well..i have to remember once we expose flaws of others in this world, He will not assist us to cover our flaws in the hereafter.. 

And rather than talking/searching bad things bout others.. the upcoming holy month is just around the corner.. have we prepare to enter it for a full month...?

Let take this upcoming blessing month gift to the fullest. 😍
balighna Ramadhan...

Today marks the 4th nite i'll be snoozing at d hosp..

If possible.. which i hope so since i've kept on having trouble to have a night rest forvthe past few days from d day i've been admitted in..

Does it related to all d meals ive bern consuming at d hosp..? 🤔
As it seem i might ate just toO far off from my usual daily meal..
but to think of it again, should'nt d more meal im tucked in, will make it easier for me to fall asleep..

Who knows.. perhaps thinking bout these nonesense thoughts might have just kept me awake..

Ok.. now trying to make myself sleepy..

Nite2.. 😴

'Every soul will taste death, and you will only be given your compensation on the Day of Resurrection..' (3:185) 

I came across news of deaths almost weekly;  friends of either side of my parents, colleague's relatives, friends..

Latest was when a hubby of a colleague, whom I acknowledge as a friend and sister though she is my superior, went to rest peacefully at dawn after battling thru his illness with numerous chemotherapy and medications for more than a year..

Leaving behind a wife to be a mother to 5 toddlers is certainly a challenge.. 

May Allah bestow His Blessings to my friend. to give strength and assurance in her heart to face the ongoing life without having a partner by the side..

Death is certainly a deep reminder..

For me to reflect on all my doings..

While I was on my way back after working for +/- 8hours, the gloomy sky burst and drops of rain pour..

This of course further contributes to the rush hour traffic flow..

one might think it should not  bother me anymore since i had pass thru 'jem' & flood for more than 6 years.. yet, it may still trigger fearsome for the car while racing thru the still water..

While stuck in a traffic, decided to on the radio.. and  a reminder was given, certainly meant for me to remember..

; everyting that happen is a test.. be it a good thing or a bad thing..

There are test which many might see it as blessing,  such as having highly paid income.. 

And there are test which are always seen as test, such as going bankrupt or failed marriage or involved in car crash..

So, everything that occur, that we face is a test..

He, the All Mighty God, created us to test us.. so that from each of the test, either good or bad, we will realise His existence,  His Greatness..;

all the 99 names of Allah attributes..

~till then..

In our daily work life, we often strive to to do the appointed 'job' in such to ensure  the monthly income we receive is from a honest way..

Did it ever occur that notes (money) that we thought will ensure stability for us to live in this world might just be a false hope..

Attended  several talks & seminars, I have to conclude that these dollar notes will fail us one day.. have to keep the savings in gold form..

As what was practiced by our beloved prophet (pbuh), every transaction in buy-sell was done using the physical gold form..

One might say, that was just an old fashion way.. now we have the dollar notes (each country has its own dollar).. but do know, since these dollar notes are in printed paper form, it can easily be destroyed by either tearing it or burnt it..

inflation will also occur in a country if it prints too much of its dollar notes.. and with our current era,  the currency exchange will also affect each country finance..

However, if the savings are done in physical gold form,  despite the currency drop nor tragedy that occur at it such has burnt, its value can still be use. Looking at the market trend, the price of the physical gold has increase yearly.. it might fall for a few months. But it will rise even higher later..

comparing its value a decade ago, the price has increase more than 1.5% as of today..

So one might just try to change its savings in gold as many as possible..

*just a thought

In about a fortnight time, the long awaited blessful month will be greeting us.. and one do highly hope to be given the opportunity to do so 😊

its so true that waiting is hard.. though waiting will usually annoyed or irritate one, but for this special month, one is willing to wait to greet and live in it yearly long..

~smiling for the coming month 😄